Compete with Ur “Negative”
Self
I think before U compete with others, the first and
important enemy and competitor in Ur life is none other than Ur “negative”
self. This negative self always makes U coward and a frustrated person, rises
Ur heart beat when U face something bad, makes Ur life hell, makes U a lazy
person and creates a pessimistic mind that pulls U down whenever U are going to
succeed in Ur life. It also forces U to think that “why do I have a tragic
life?”, “Why are others cheating me?”,”
Why don’t people help me when I get into trouble?”, “Why am I not succeeding in
my career?”, “Why do I have so many love failures?”, “Why do people scold me
even if I don’t do any mistakes?”and “Am I a useless and dumb person?”. These thoughts
make U think that U are not fit in this competitive world.
The negative self always wants U to lose everything and to see
U almost in a crazy state. So I think in order to get a successful life, first
U have to compete with Ur negative self. For that, U have to face Ur negatives courageously
and overcome it. Now I remember that once I had stage fear. Whenever I stood
and looked people from the podium, my heart beat rose very fast. Though there would be air in the stage,
I began to feel hot throughout my body. Then, I began to sweat tremendously,
and finally my whole body began to tremble. Then U can imagine what will
happen.... the organizers came very fast... giving me water....tears from my
eyes... my classmates’ condemned look on me (during my school days, I hated their
condemned look because I feared that they might treat me as a weak girl).... console
from dear teacher, my best friends and my parents...my “adorable” sister’s non-stop
motivational talks which I hate the most because it is never ending (though her
motivational talks do not create an impact in me, nowadays I think that she is
a good motivator because I saw many changes in her friends and our relatives
after she heels their agonies. Still, I can’t bear her motivational talks).
I always wanted a solution to defeat and perish stage fear
from my life. Since I am an Indian, we have a belief that teachers are equal to
Gods because from our childhood onward, they are the people who impart
knowledge to us and build a good personality in us. So I thought that my
teachers would help me to come out of my stage fear. But they always said to me
that I had to improve a lot. On hearing this, I always get upset. Then finally,
I got Vani maam while I was doing graduation in KNM Govt. Arts and Science
College. She is very friendly with me. There is no student and teacher barrier between
her and me. I can approach, talk and call her anytime. Fortunately, she was the
head of the Literary Club in which I was a member. The members had to do so
many activities like creative writings, enacting dramas, writing its scripts,
paper presentations and reading literary works. In one of the sessions, I had
to do a paper presentation. As usual I was about to present the paper, I began
to shiver and felt a little bit dizzy. I thought that I might get cardiac
arrest. Fortunately, nothing happened.
On that day, Vani maam called me and told me, “Kid, I know U
have stage fear. I also had it when I was in Ur age. But U have to come out of
it at any cost. Otherwise, U can’t excel in Ur paper presentation”. I asked, “Maam,
I wanted to overcome it. Can U tell me how I can get rid of it?”. “Kid, U have
to compete with Ur negative self. Also, U have to remember one thing that even
if people try to help U to get rid of Ur stage fear, U will not succeed unless
U are ready”.
From that day onward, I begin to ponder over what is meant negative
self? What are my negatives and positive qualities? Fortunately, I figured out
my negatives and what are the things which hold me back while I face the
audience? Then I found that the best way to overcome my stage fear is not running
away from the audience, instead I have to do many paper presentations, stage
performances and anchoring. So that day onward, I volunteered to do paper
presentation, stage performances and anchoring. Then U know what happened? Now
I no longer have stage fear. Now I enjoy whenever I do paper presentation,
stage performances and anchoring. Though in my earlier times, I did so many
rehearsals in my home. Now I do a little preparation. Thus I finally understood
that my enemy is my negative self.
Now I realize that when U compete with Ur negative self, U
will excel in everything. It is somewhat like facing Ur fears face to face.
What U want to do is that U have to figure out negatives and battle with it until
U win. If low temper is Ur negative quality that makes rift in relationships,
then U have to learn patience and keep Ur ears shut or distract whenever U are
provoked by something. U can distract Urself by remembering some funny moments,
jokes or remembering Ur favorite songs.
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